Nope. I seem to be very good at hurting people I care about. What is the point of caring about anything when all that comes from it is pain and regret? I have been questioning my faith as well, I have been a faithful follower of God and Christianity for my entire life, but when I actually need help, none is given. Why would you want to believe in a God that allowed terrible things to happen to good people? What sucks is that I can't get the change in my life that I need to make an impact at this point. I still live with my parents, and in order to change things, I would need to change my environment. I can't do that, and it won't be possible